The Art of Letting Go..

Honey,

I wanted to apologize for some things that I may have done to drive you into the arms of other women while I lay in bed sleeping at night, just after praying to God thanking him for you and asking him to please watch over you, like I did every single night.

I am so sorry that I am always exhausted ... to tired to spend time with you. I don't know why I am always tired. There are plenty of women out there who have a stressful job, then come home to care for a child and a house. Why on earth would I be tired? Especially since we are both working all day. I completely agree that I should have had gone being boring with you EVERY TIME you wanted to, because after all, being boring, it makes the world go round!

Everyone knows that marriage cannot survive without being boring each week. How ridiculous of me to not consider this!

I am so so sorry that I didn't stroke your ego every second I had the opportunity. I'm sorry I didn't drop my purse and files and run to you and JUMP on you every time I came into the door after work! I am sorry I couldn't initiate sex whenever you wanted some, because after all, wives ARE mind readers, right??

I am sorry that we had only 4 days off a month together, and I didn't want to spend those days each month traveling to see your family. I am sorry I never wanted to do what you wanted to do because I should have recognized that you were PRETENDING to want to do the same things as me!

I should have known that when we spent sometime being together, you didn't really want to be with me. When you left me love letters, they were all lies. When you bought me gifts, there were out of guilt. I apologize, because I just didn't see it!

I am sorry for not telling you repeatedly how much I needed you, because for some idiotic reason, I thought it was more important that I wanted you.

After a dreadful thinking of lost and regrets, I told myself that having someone who doesn't know where to put his balls to rest does not deserve anybody especially myself.

And the only regret I have now is that I wasted so much sense in me for being SOMEBODY to some idiot like you!

So Goodbye..

I'm sorry.